An Unquiet Mind

by

Kay Redfield Jamison

An Unquiet Mind: Chapter 12 Summary & Analysis

Summary
Analysis
Jamison writes that, although she’s never had an easy time telling someone about her manic-depressive illness for the first time, there are one or two experiences that stand out to her as having been particularly difficult and painful. Most of her reluctance to share details of her illness has been based in a desire to keep her personal and professional lives separate, and there have been several instances in which a friend or colleague has hurt her and added to that sense of reluctance. 
Jamison plans to explore in this chapter the ways in which people’s personally-held prejudices and judgments can affect the larger societal stigmas against mental illness—even if they don’t explicitly understand that that is what their biases are doing.
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Jamison recalls telling a former colleague—and friend, or at least she thought—named Mouseheart about her illness over lunch. The two had grown close over several months of working together, and, at a certain point, Kay felt odd about not having shared the fact that she suffered from manic-depressive illness with him. At a restaurant in Malibu one afternoon, Kay finally confided in Mouseheart—the man began crying and told Kay he was “deeply disappointed” in her for having attempted the “selfish” act of suicide. Mouseheart began asking invasive and condescending questions about Kay’s ability to work in her chosen profession; Kay responded with sarcastic answers which succeeded in shutting Mouseheart up. Though he later apologized and even sent roses to Kay’s apartment, nothing he said or did could heal the hurt he inspired when he judged her so cruelly.
Jamison’s anecdote about her friend named Mouseheart—which may be a real name or a nickname meant to point out the smallness and cowardice within this person’s innermost self—reveals just how painful it was for Jamison to confront the fact that someone she thought cared for her was willing to judge her so quickly and mercilessly. Jamison has had to deal with her fear of being stigmatized on a professional level all her life, but to be scrutinized and othered by a friend and colleague hits especially hard.
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In spite of the few unfortunate experiences she’s had when revealing her mental illness to others, much of Jamison’s reluctance to discuss her illness stems from a fear of affecting people’s perception of her ability to be a professional. She has long been afraid of being labeled “unstable” or having a medical license denied or revoked.
Jamison’s many experiences with self-doubt and societal stigma on both personal and professional levels have made her feel insecure and vulnerable. She understands how wide the societal stigma against sufferers of mental illness is through painful first-hand experiences.
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Lately, however, Jamison has begun to fear that her students might, in sensing her own reluctance to bridge the personal and the professional, develop their own fears of being sidelined due to factors beyond their control. For this reason, she has begun to discuss her personal struggles with mental illness more openly. She still worries on occasion that her openness about manic-depressive illness will impact how her colleagues see her or read her work—but at the same time, she is mature enough to admit that her experiences have indeed colored her entire body of work, her clinical practice, and her professional choices.
Jamison has decided that being open and transparent about herself, no matter the cost, is more important than maintaining a certain front in professional settings. Something in society needs to change—and Jamison wants to be on the front lines of reorganizing society’s prejudices against and misunderstandings about those suffering from mental illnesses.
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Nevertheless, Jamison has, at many points in her career, found herself questioning whether someone with mental illness should be allowed to treat patients. In 1986, when she began an academic appointment at Johns Hopkins, she filled out an application for clinical privileges at the hospital with a sense of dread and uncertainty. When a question on the form asked if she suffered from a disability or illness, Jamison knew she needed to meet with the chairman of the Department of Psychiatry. Over lunch, she told him about her struggles with manic-depressive illness, and explained that at UCLA her colleagues had known of her mental illness and had promised to intervene if they ever felt she should take a break—or resign—from practicing medicine. 
This passage makes clear the fact that Jamison’s fears about practicing medicine even though she herself has a mental illness stem from society’s stigma against sufferers like her around the globe. She has been made to feel less-than because of the unique challenges life has dealt her, rather than more powerful and more capable because of the storms she’s weathered.
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Jamison writes that practicing medicine is indeed a privilege, and that questions about hospital privileges are “neither unfair nor irrelevant.” At the same time, she warns that the shame and stigma which accompanies divulging one’s illness or disability status in the workplace often leads to doctors failing to do so for fear of being stigmatized or sidelined—which, of course, only puts their patients at risk, too. Jamison believes patients should never have to pay for their doctors’ problems—but that the systems within which doctors work should be more open and accommodating so as not to dissuade doctors from seeking treatment when they need it or practicing transparency with their colleagues.
Jamison understands that, while society does unfairly stigmatize those with mental illness—especially in the professional realm—there are very real reasons that liability measures are in place. The problem, she suggests, is the stigma that exists in the first place; if she was as scared as she was to be honest about her illness, there are no doubt many, many others who lie on their forms or resist treatment out of fear of admitting they have a problem or need the support of their colleagues, actions which could potentially endanger themselves or their patients.
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Jamison writes that the chairman at Hopkins, as an answer to her confession, told her that he already knew she had manic-depressive illness—and that if he were to “get rid of all the manic-depressives on the […] faculty,” the hospital would be a much more boring and uninspired place.
Jamison was so concerned about how her boss at Hopkins would receive the news of her illness, but she was pleasantly surprised to learn that he feels mental illness is not a shameful thing but rather a part of the human condition which can enliven and enrich society.
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