In this passage, as Lenù realizes that Lila deceived her in an attempt to prevent Lenù from attending middle school—thus evening the playing field between them and tying their fates together even more inextricably—she is shocked by Lila’s unrepentant boldness more than she is hurt. If Lila can’t move forward, she doesn’t want Lenù to either; this dynamic will come to define their relationship throughout their lives, and Lenù will eventually find herself in Lila’s position, too.