My Sister’s Keeper

My Sister’s Keeper

by

Jodi Picoult

My Sister’s Keeper: 3. 1990: Sara Summary & Analysis

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Jesse spots a bruise between Kate’s shoulder blades during their bath, but it doesn’t appear to hurt. While Sara bathes the children, Brian tells her about an insurance case involving a man who “burned” his cigars by smoking them. Jesse presses hard on Kate’s bruise, causing her to scream in pain. Sara passes her to Brian and orders Jesse out of the bath, but he slips and hits his knee as he gets out. Sara picks him up and sooths him as she continues to talk to Brian about the case, which he spoke as an expert witness in; the defendant was sentenced to a count of arson for every cigar. Brian was called because he is a firefighter who knows how to locate the source of a fire even in a destroyed structure.
The first scene of Sara’s flashback chapters, Jesse and Kate’s bath time provides a quaint picture of the hectic life of parenthood. Sara and Brian nonchalantly discuss their days while wrestling their crying children, showing how accustomed they are to the chaos of raising a family. At first glance, there’s nothing unusual about their night—but given that the novel has already established Kate’s leukemia, the bruise between her shoulder blades takes on a more ominous meaning for the reader.
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Sara used to be a civil attorney but changed her life path and became a stay-at-home mother when she realized how much she enjoyed parenthood. Her sister Suzanne, who works in finance, hates this for her, feeling it’s a waste of her life, but Sara feels that she is a much better mother than she would have been a lawyer. She wonders if there are other women who found their true calling in life by “going nowhere” rather than pursuing a career. When Brian asks her if she misses the courtroom, Sara says that she misses it “like a root canal.”
Sara and Suzanne are the second pair of sisters introduced in the novel, but unlike Kate and Anna, the two adult sisters are somewhat estranged. The distance between them reflects the struggles of womanhood, with Sara feeling that she failed her sister for choosing a more “traditional” life as a stay-at-home mother. However, Sara’s pride in her parenthood outweighs her guilt over abandoning the law.
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The next morning, Brian is at work by the time Sara wakes up at nine o’clock. She rushes downstairs to find that Jesse has gotten milk and cereal all over the kitchen. When she asks him where Kate is, he tells her that she’s still sleeping—this is unusual, and Sara wonders if she’s coming down with a cold. She goes to wake Kate up, then pulls off her pajama top. A trail of blue bruises is running down Kate’s spine.
As with the night before, Sara’s day starts immersed in the chaos of parenthood, with Jesse’s breakfast mishap providing a humorous interlude in the chapter. However, this idyllic family life is instantly shattered by the discovery of the bruises on Kate’s spine—a clear sign that something is very wrong.
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At the pediatrician’s office, Sara asks the doctor, Dr. Wayne, if it could be anemia. Dr. Wayne says it could be a virus and asks for a blood test. When Jesse hears this, he scares Kate by describing the needle she’ll be stuck with. Kate looks to Sara for reassurance, and Sara tells her that it will only be a small shot. But when the nurse comes in with the needles, Kate begins to cry, and although she’s briefly comforted by Sara’s claim that it will only be a tiny pinch, she wails throughout the blood draw. However, by the third vial, she has gone completely limp. Sara doesn’t know whether this or the screaming is worse.
The description of Kate’s protracted blood test is excruciating to read, emphasizing the difficulty of bringing such a young child into an intense medical setting—an experience Sara will tragically become accustomed to. That Kate eventually gives up resisting also signifies how she will ultimately become accustomed to invasive medical procedures as she grows older and sicker.
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After an hour of waiting, Dr. Wayne calls the family back in and informs them that Kate’s white cell count is extremely low. He speculates that it could be an autoimmune disorder or even a lab error, but he refers them to a hematologist to redo the tests just to be safe. Sara is exasperated at having to repeat the ordeal, but pauses when she sees that the hematologist, Ileana Farquad, specializes in both hematology and oncology. Sara points this out, waiting for Dr. Wayne to reassure her that it’s simply part of the doctor’s title and has nothing to do with Kate’s tests. Dr. Wayne, however, does not reassure her.
The results of Kate’s blood tests are concerning, but Sara is initially still in denial about the gravity of it, as evidenced by how her first reaction to repeating the tests is exasperation at the inconvenience. However, much like the shift that came with discovering Kate’s bruises, the revelation that Dr. Farquad is an oncologist further destroys the illusion that Sara will be able to continue parenting her children as she has so far.
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Sara calls Brian’s work and discovers that he’s on a call. Sara hesitates, looking down at Kate in the hospital waiting room. She reflects on how, in life, there are moments where one makes major, life-changing decisions without even realizing it. She cites her decision to summon Brian away from his call—even though she’s trying to convince herself nothing significant is happening—as one of these decisions.
Brian is a firefighter, meaning that at any given point during his shift, he could be saving someone’s life. With this in mind, Sara’s decision to call him away from work holds immense gravity. Although Sara is still acting as though everything is fine, her decision to do this reveals that, deep down, she knows that her family is about to undergo a major and traumatic change.
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After three hours of waiting, the Fitzgeralds are seen by a resident, who asks them various questions about Kate’s medical history. A phlebotomist comes in and asks for a coag panel, which would involve more needles. Sara asks for a finger stick, but the phlebotomist claims that this is the “easiest way,” which causes Sara to get into an argument about how none of this is easy for her or Kate. The phlebotomist storms away and Brian tries to calm Sara down, but she tells him that she can’t calm down when nobody is telling them what’s going on. Brian hugs her and tells her it’s going to be alright, and for the first time ever, she doesn’t believe him.
Picoult continues to focus on the pain and suffering Kate undergoes through her medical tests, which in turn signifies the suffering that the entire family is undergoing. Sara’s argument against Kate’s coag panel reflects her desire to enact control over the situation and protect Kate’s bodily autonomy, but her anger is unable to change anything about the larger fact: that Kate is likely very sick and will have to continue suffering like this for a long time to come.
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Dr. Farquad returns after being gone for several hours and tells Sara and Brian that Kate’s white blood count is very low. This, in addition to some other aspects of her tests, leads Dr. Farquad to believe that Kate has leukemia—specifically, acute promyelocytic leukemia. Brian asks if Kate is going to die, to which Dr. Farquad explains that Kate would have a prognosis of nine months to three years with aggressive treatment. Sara thinks of the week before, when she and Brian talked about Kate’s eventual wedding dress. Dr. Farquad reassures them that kids beat the odds every day while Sara looks down at Kate, feeling that this whole thing must be a mistake. She thinks that, although she’s only known Kate two years, every memory they have together would reach forever if stretched end to end.
With Kate’s formal diagnosis of APL, the normal life the Fitzgeralds have had up to this point has come to a devastating end. The brutal contrast between their now-past peaceful life and Kate’s impending death is tragically illustrated by the memory of Sara and Brian discussing what Kate will be like on her wedding. This memory shows how easily Sara and Brian had assumed that Kate would make it into adulthood; the idea of her dying before the age of five was literally unthinkable until now.
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The doctors bring Kate in for a bone marrow extraction. She’s taped down to the examination table, with one of the nurses stroking Kate’s hand even after she’s been knocked out from the anesthesia. When they turn her face to the side, the paper beneath her face is wet. Sara learns from Kate that you don’t have to be awake to cry.
In the previous scenes in which Kate was subjected to tests, she often screamed and put up a fight. Here, she is unable to do so due to the anesthesia, but her tears illustrate the constant suffering she’s undergone. Worse still, she is losing her ability to fight back against the pain she’s being subjected to.
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On the drive home from the hospital, Sara is struck with the feeling that the entire world is inflatable, that she could veer the car through a fence and it would simply bounce back into place. While she drives, she plays animal sounds with Kate, who is eating animal crackers. While they play, Sara thinks about what Kate’s death will look like. Kate asks what giraffes say, to which Sara answers that giraffes don’t say anything. When Kate asks why, Sara says that that’s how they’re born. After this answer, she can’t bring herself to speak anymore.
Sara’s imagining that the whole world is inflatable and fake reflects the way that the reality she’s come to know has completely collapsed; it’s difficult for her to imagine the world as a real place given what’s happening to her daughter. This discrepancy is furthered by the fact that Kate is too young to understand what’s happening to her and is proceeding as normal.
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Sara drops Jesse off with a neighbor in order to care for Kate, since her and Brian’s only babysitters are in high school and both her and Brian’s parents are dead. When she enters the kitchen, Brian is on the phone talking casually to a friend of his from the fire academy; when asked, he tells his friend that the kids are doing great. Sara stares silently at him after he hangs up the phone, and he admits that he couldn’t bring himself to tell his friend the truth.
Although Sara and Brian have begun to realize how dramatically their life has changed, Brian is not yet at the point where he can talk about this to people outside his household. In this way, the Fitzgeralds are already becoming isolated from the world around them due to the extraordinary circumstances Kate’s illness has thrown them into.
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That night, Sara and Brian lie awake in bed next to each other, silent. Sara runs through various reasons that this is happening to them: she yelled at Jesse; she didn’t buy Kate the M&Ms she wanted; she briefly thought what her life would have been like without kids. Next to her, Brian asks if she thinks they gave Kate the cancer through their genes. Sara doesn’t answer, so he continues, claiming that the hospital doesn’t know what they’re doing—implying that they could be wrong about Kate’s prognosis. Sara tells him that she won’t let Kate die. Brian begins to cry into her shoulder; she repeats her promise, but she knows that it’s a hollow one.
In trying to process Kate’s illness, both Sara and Brian try to rationalize why it’s happening. Sara leans more towards magical thinking, imagining that she’s facing a sort of divine retribution for occasionally struggling with parenthood. Brian is more empirical by theorizing that their genetics passed the cancer to Kate. However, in both cases, Sara and Brian put the blame on themselves. Sara’s vow to save Kate is also an attempt to enact order on the situation, since she and Brian both know there’s only so much she can do.
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