Yozo’s interest in art—and specifically painting—symbolizes his desire to somehow express his feelings of horror and revulsion in response to everyday life. When Takeichi comes over one day and insists that Van Gogh’s famous self-portrait is actually a portrait of a ghost, Yozo suddenly realizes that art doesn’t always have to depict beautiful, pleasant things. To the contrary, art can be challenging and disturbing, and Yozo takes comfort in the idea that many of history’s most successful painters must have seen the world as a wretched place and then decided to depict that wretchedness in their art. This, he comes to believe, is a way for people to face depravity head-on instead of constantly running from it, which is what he has been doing by “clowning” around and trying to act like a silly, jovial person. He thus decides to stop drawing meaningless cartoons and start painting unsettling portraits, and though he only shows his work to Takeichi, the paintings come to represent his gravitation toward self-expression, ultimately suggesting that even the most private people find themselves drawn to anything that helps them make sense of their worldview.
Painting Quotes in No Longer Human
There are some people whose dread of human beings is so morbid that they reach a point where they yearn to see with their own eyes monsters of ever more horrible shapes. And the more nervous they are—the quicker to take fright—the more violent they pray that every storm will be…Painters who have had this mentality, after repeated wounds and intimidations at the hands of the apparitions called human beings, have often come to believe in phantasms—they plainly saw monsters in broad daylight, in the midst of nature. And they did not fob people off with clowning; they did their best to depict these monsters just as they had appeared.
The pictures I drew were so heart-rending as to stupefy even myself. Here was the true self I had so desperately hidden. I had smiled cheerfully; I had made others laugh; but this was the harrowing reality. I secretly affirmed this self, was sure that there was no escape from it, but naturally I did not show my pictures to anyone except Takeichi.