Once

by

Morris Gleitzman

Notebook Symbol Analysis

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In Once, Felix’s notebook represents his love of escapist stories, a love that evolves as Felix slowly realizes stories are not a replacement for reality but a tool to shape reality. Felix’s parents gave him the notebook before leaving him at a remote orphanage in Nazi-occupied Poland, pretending that they needed to travel to save their business when in fact they were hiding Felix from the Nazis. In the notebook, Felix loves writing stories about his parents’ imagined adventures. Felix’s relationship to the notebook changes dramatically throughout the novel. He rejects the notebook when he realizes that his parents concealed the horrors of Nazi-occupied Poland from him. When the Jewish dentist Barney, who has been hiding Jewish children from the Nazis, assumes responsibility for Felix and asks whether he can read Felix’s notebook stories to the other children, Felix refuses. He has decided his notebook stories are “stupid” because the escapist adventures he imagined for his parents in no way capture their oppressed, endangered reality. Stories, he concludes, hide ugly truths. Yet when Barney asks Felix to tell Barney’s dental patients stories to distract them from their dental surgeries, the experience makes Felix realize that escapism helps people endure unavoidable pain. The notebook, Felix sees, is a useful tool. Finally, when Nazis put Felix on a train to a concentration camp, Felix tears up his notebook to create makeshift toilet paper for the other passengers—and, while making the paper available to all, discovers a rotten section of the train through which passengers can escape. Felix’s final destruction of the notebook to help others—and the possibility of survival it reveals—shows that fiction and escapism are tools that must be employed or cast aside as real situations dictate, not a replacement for attention to harsh reality.

Notebook Quotes in Once

The Once quotes below all refer to the symbol of Notebook. For each quote, you can also see the other characters and themes related to it (each theme is indicated by its own dot and icon, like this one:
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Pages 29–40 Quotes

Sometimes real life can be a bit different from stories.

Related Characters: Felix Salinger (speaker)
Related Symbols: Notebook
Page Number: 36
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Pages 53–61 Quotes

Please, Mum and Dad, I beg silently.

Don’t be like these people.

Don’t put up a struggle.

It’s only books.

Related Characters: Felix Salinger (speaker), Dodie
Related Symbols: Notebook
Page Number: 56
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I feel really sorry for her. It’s really hard being an orphan if you haven’t got an imagination.

Related Characters: Felix Salinger (speaker), Zelda, Dodie
Related Symbols: Notebook
Page Number: 60
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Pages 81–90 Quotes

“They’re in danger,” I croak. “Really bad danger. Don’t believe the notebook. The stories in the notebook aren’t true.”

Related Characters: Felix Salinger (speaker), Zelda, Barney
Related Symbols: Notebook
Page Number: 85
Explanation and Analysis:
Pages 99–111 Quotes

A story?

Then I get it. When Mum went to the dentist, she had an injection to dull the pain. Barney hasn’t given this patient an injection. Times are tough, and there probably aren’t enough pain-dulling drugs in ghetto curfew places.

Suddenly my mouth feels dry. I’ve never told anyone else a story to take their mind off pain. And when I told myself all those stories about Mum and Dad, I wanted to believe them. Plus, I didn’t have a drill in my mouth.

This is a big responsibility.

Related Characters: Felix Salinger (speaker), Barney
Related Symbols: Notebook
Page Number: 107
Explanation and Analysis:
Pages 153–161 Quotes

“Here,” I say to the woman in the corner. “Use this.”

The other people pass it over to her and when she sees what it is she starts crying.

“It’s all right,” I say. “I haven’t written on it.”

Related Characters: Felix Salinger (speaker)
Related Symbols: Notebook
Page Number: 156
Explanation and Analysis:
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Notebook Symbol Timeline in Once

The timeline below shows where the symbol Notebook appears in Once. The colored dots and icons indicate which themes are associated with that appearance.
Pages 9–17
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...back for him “once they’d fixed up their bookshop troubles.” Besides, they gave him a notebook with a yellow cover, which he can use to identify himself and in which he’s... (full context)
Pages 18–28
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...one of the visitors, whom he thinks are “librarians.” Felix tells the man that the notebook he's holding isn’t a library book and wonders why Mother Minka would get librarians who... (full context)
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...office. Then, calling him “Felek,” she says she remembers: she asked him to collect his notebook. Then she orders him upstairs. Wondering why she called him the wrong name, Felix notices... (full context)
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...to him, as a sign that he’ll come back. He removes a page from his notebook and writes a letter to Mother Minka, thanking her and asking her to give Dodie... (full context)
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...about the horse killing his parents made them cry. Felix tears a story from his notebook and tells Jankiel to study it as a model. Jankiel thanks him. (full context)
Pages 29–40
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...he stuffs with rags to make them fit. He writes a note (torn from his notebook) apologizing for stealing. Hearing gunshots again, he recalls how his father told him that wild... (full context)
Pages 62–71
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...Felix yells at the Nazi not to shoot, the Nazi aims at him. Seeing his notebook on the ground, Felix realizes he dropped it and supposes the Nazi believes he’s a... (full context)
Pages 81–90
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Felix wakes, thinks he’s lost his notebook, and starts yelling for it. Zelda lights a candle; a “silver heart” necklace glints on... (full context)
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...Barney wakes Felix and asks whether he can read the children a story from Felix’s notebook. Felix, donning his glasses, sees children all around his bed: Zelda, Henryk, Ruth, a young... (full context)
Pages 99–111
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...cellar. Instead, Barney gives him a candle and admits he read a story from Felix’s notebook, trying to learn about Felix’s parents. He says that Felix spins good stories and that... (full context)
Pages 144–152
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...an authority, Felix spots the Nazi officer who wanted Felix’s story. He pulls out his notebook, rips out the story, and brandishes it at the Nazi officer. When the officer comes... (full context)
Pages 153–161
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...but he tries not to think about it. Having an idea, he pulls out his notebook and passes pages through the crowd for the old woman to use. When they reach... (full context)
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At first, Felix only rips out unused notebook pages for people to use. Then, figuring his parents would understand, he rips out the... (full context)