Ray’s long period of dedicated meditation starts to yield even greater rewards. He can feel himself internalizing certain Buddhist teachings and moving on to more advanced ones, and he learns to approach life with a sense of joy and equanimity (mental stability even under negative or stressful conditions). When his visions help him cure his mother’s cough, he seems to be gaining some kind of divine or supernatural insight, which suggests that he might truly be on the verge of the enlightenment he’s been seeking. Nevertheless, he understands the enormous responsibilities that would come with this kind of power, and he is hesitant to fall back into the pride that led him to bicker with his brother-in-law. Instead, he determines that his mission as a Buddhist must be to change minds, not try to work miracles. Beyond showing how his thinking has evolved, this demonstrates his debt to Japhy—who helped change
Ray’s mind—and Kerouac’s reasons for writing this book (one of which was to help spread Buddhism in the United States).