The Girl on the Train

by

Paula Hawkins

Rachel Watson is the titular girl on the train and the novel’s primary narrator and protagonist. A divorcee and alcoholic in her mid-thirties, Rachel has also recently lost her job and seemingly her prospects for the future. She spends her days riding trains back and forth from London in hopes of escaping her loneliness, boredom, and misery. Rachel enjoys glimpsing a young and loving couple who live along the tracks in the suburb of Witney, where the train stops each day at the signal. This couple lives at 23 Blenheim Road, just down the street from where Rachel herself used to live with her ex-husband, Tom. One day, Rachel happens to see the wife of the house cheating on her husband—something that makes Rachel angry and obsessed because it reminds her of the humiliation that Tom’s affair caused her. Soon after, Rachel wakes up one Sunday morning covered in bumps, bruises, and lacerations but unable to remember what she did the night before. She then discovers that the young woman whom she saw having an affair, Megan Hipwell, is missing—and Rachel becomes afraid that she had something to do with Megan’s disappearance. Rachel knows that the only way to ease her mind is to piece together what transpired that Saturday night—and to find Megan’s abductor before the authorities seek to pin the crime on the unstable, unreliable Rachel herself. Rachel’s own amateur investigation into the matter is hampered by her alcoholism—and it’s built upon a foundation of secrets and lies. She attempts to insinuate herself into Megan’s husband Scott’s life, which leads Rachel to uncover unsettling truths about her own past that have been sullied and corrupted through years of gaslighting and abuse. As Rachel pieces together the truth about Megan’s murder, she discovers the truth about the disintegration of her own life as well—and in the depths of despair and hopelessness, she finds long-forgotten strength within herself. Complicated, jealous, lonely, and at times self-destructive, Rachel Watson is a decidedly unreliable yet engaging narrator. Her journey back to self-worth speaks to the undue pressures that society places upon women—and what happens when women reach their breaking points.

Rachel Watson Quotes in The Girl on the Train

The The Girl on the Train quotes below are all either spoken by Rachel Watson or refer to Rachel Watson. For each quote, you can also see the other characters and themes related to it (each theme is indicated by its own dot and icon, like this one:
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Rachel: One Quotes

I know that on warm summer evenings, the occupants of this house, Jason and Jess, sometimes climb out of the large sash window to sit on the makeshift terrace on top of the kitchen-extension roof. They are a perfect, golden couple. […] While we're stuck at the red signal, I look for them. Jess is often out there in the mornings, especially in the summer, drinking her coffee. Sometimes, when I see her there, I feel as though she sees me, too, I feel as though she looks right back at me, and I want to wave.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Scott Hipwell / “Jason”
Related Symbols: Trains
Page Number: 4
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I have lost control over everything, even the places in my head.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson, Cathy
Page Number: 9
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Rachel: Two Quotes

I don't have words to describe what I felt that day, but now, sitting on the train, I am furious, nails digging into my palms, tears stinging my eyes. I feel a flash of intense anger. I feel as though something has been taken away from me. How could she? How could Jess do this? What is wrong with her? Look at the life they have, look at how beautiful it is!

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”
Related Symbols: Trains
Page Number: 30-31
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Something happened, I know it did. I can't picture it, but I can feel it. The inside of my mouth hurts, as though I've bitten my cheek, there's a metallic tang of blood on my tongue. I feel nauseated, dizzy. I run my hands through my hair, over my scalp. I flinch. There's a lump, painful and tender, on the right side of my head. My hair is matted with blood.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson
Page Number: 39
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Three Quotes

Maybe it was then. Maybe that was the moment when things started to go wrong, the moment when I imagined us no longer a couple, but a family; and after that, once I had that picture in my head, just the two of us could never be enough. Was it then that Tom started to look at me differently, his disappointment mirroring my own? After all he gave up for me, for the two of us to be together, I let him think that he wasn't enough.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson
Related Symbols: Trains
Page Number: 51
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Four Quotes

The thing about being barren is that you're not allowed to get away from it. […] My friends were having children, friends of friends were having children, pregnancy and birth and first birthday parties were everywhere. I was asked about it all the time. […] When was it going to be my turn? […] I was still young, there was still plenty of time, but failure cloaked me like a mantle, it overwhelmed me, dragged me under, and I gave up hope. […] I was wrong to suggest that we should share the blame; it was all down to me.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson
Page Number: 78
Explanation and Analysis:

On the train on the way home, as I dissect all the ways that today went wrong, I'm surprised by the fact that I don't feel as awful as I might. Thinking about it, I know why that is: I didn't have a drink last night, and I have no desire to have one now. I am interested, for the first time in ages, in something other than my own misery. I have purpose. Or at least, I have a distraction.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”
Related Symbols: Trains
Page Number: 85
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Five Quotes

I'm thinking about her now. I have to convince Scott that I knew her—a little, not a lot. That way, he'll believe me when I tell him that I saw her with another man. If I admit to lying right away, he'll never trust me. So I try to imagine what it would have been like to drop by the gallery, chat with her over a coffee. Does she drink coffee? We would talk about art, perhaps, or yoga, or our husbands. I don't know anything about art, I've never done yoga. I don't have a husband. And she betrayed hers.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Anna Watson, Tom Watson, Scott Hipwell / “Jason”
Page Number: 107
Explanation and Analysis:
Anna: Two Quotes

We need to get away from here. We need to get away from her.

Related Characters: Anna Watson (speaker), Rachel Watson, Tom Watson, Scott Hipwell / “Jason”, Evie
Page Number: 140
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Eight Quotes

"Honestly, Rachel, I don't understand how you could have kept this up for so long."

I shrug. "ln the morning, I take the 8:04, and in the evening, I come back on the 5:55. That's my train. It's the one I take. That's the way it is."

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Cathy (speaker)
Related Symbols: Trains
Page Number: 157
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Ten Quotes

It's different, the nightmare I wake from this morning. In it, I've done something wrong, but I don't know what it is, all I know is that it cannot be put right. All I know is that Tom hates me now, he won't talk to me any longer, and he has told everyone I know about the terrible thing I've done, and everyone has turned against me: old colleagues, my friends, even my mother. They look at me with disgust, contempt, and no one will listen to me, no one will let me tell them how sorry I am. I feel awful, desperately guilty, I just can't think what it is that I've done.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson, Rachel’s Mother
Page Number: 179
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Eleven Quotes

Megan isn't what I thought she was anyway. She wasn't that beautiful, carefree girl out on the terrace. She wasn't a loving wife. She wasn't even a good person. She was a liar, a cheat.

She was a killer.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Scott Hipwell / “Jason”
Page Number: 209
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Thirteen Quotes

“Every time I passed that hole in the wall I thought about it. Tom said he was going to patch it up, but he didn't, and I didn't want to pester him about it. One day I was standing there […] and I […] remembered. I was on the floor, my back to the wall, sobbing and sobbing, Tom standing over me, begging me to calm down, the golf club on the carpet next to my feet, and I felt it, I felt it. I was terrified. The memory doesn't fit with the reality, because I don't remember anger, raging fury. I remember fear."

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Tom Watson, Dr. Kamal Abdic
Page Number: 230
Explanation and Analysis:
Anna: Six Quotes

I'm doing the things she did: drinking alone and snooping on him. The things she did and he hated. But recently—as recently as this morning—things have shifted. If he's going to lie, then I'm going to check up on him. That's a fair deal, isn't it?

Related Characters: Anna Watson (speaker), Rachel Watson, Tom Watson
Page Number: 242
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Fifteen Quotes

Everything is a lie. I didn't imagine him hitting me. I didn't imagine him walking away from me quickly, his fists clenched. I saw him turn, shout. I saw him walking down the road with a woman, I saw him getting into the car with her. I didn't imagine it. And I realize then that it's all very simple, so very simple.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Tom Watson
Page Number: 271-272
Explanation and Analysis:
Anna: Nine Quotes

"I don't believe you," I say. "Why would he lie about that?"

"Because he lies about everything."

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Anna Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Tom Watson
Page Number: 279
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Nineteen Quotes

Tom's lips are moving, he's saying something to me, but I can't hear him. I watch him come, I watch him, and I don't move until he's almost upon me, and then I swing. I jam the vicious twist of the corkscrew into his neck.

His eyes widen as he falls without a sound. He raises his hands to his throat, his eyes on mine. He looks as though he's crying. I watch until I can't look any longer, then I turn my back on him. As the train goes past I can see faces in brightly lit windows, heads bent over books and phones, travellers warm and safe on their way home.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Anna Watson, Tom Watson
Related Symbols: Trains
Page Number: 317
Explanation and Analysis:
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Rachel Watson Quotes in The Girl on the Train

The The Girl on the Train quotes below are all either spoken by Rachel Watson or refer to Rachel Watson. For each quote, you can also see the other characters and themes related to it (each theme is indicated by its own dot and icon, like this one:
Women and Society Theme Icon
).
Rachel: One Quotes

I know that on warm summer evenings, the occupants of this house, Jason and Jess, sometimes climb out of the large sash window to sit on the makeshift terrace on top of the kitchen-extension roof. They are a perfect, golden couple. […] While we're stuck at the red signal, I look for them. Jess is often out there in the mornings, especially in the summer, drinking her coffee. Sometimes, when I see her there, I feel as though she sees me, too, I feel as though she looks right back at me, and I want to wave.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Scott Hipwell / “Jason”
Related Symbols: Trains
Page Number: 4
Explanation and Analysis:

I have lost control over everything, even the places in my head.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson, Cathy
Page Number: 9
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Two Quotes

I don't have words to describe what I felt that day, but now, sitting on the train, I am furious, nails digging into my palms, tears stinging my eyes. I feel a flash of intense anger. I feel as though something has been taken away from me. How could she? How could Jess do this? What is wrong with her? Look at the life they have, look at how beautiful it is!

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”
Related Symbols: Trains
Page Number: 30-31
Explanation and Analysis:

Something happened, I know it did. I can't picture it, but I can feel it. The inside of my mouth hurts, as though I've bitten my cheek, there's a metallic tang of blood on my tongue. I feel nauseated, dizzy. I run my hands through my hair, over my scalp. I flinch. There's a lump, painful and tender, on the right side of my head. My hair is matted with blood.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson
Page Number: 39
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Three Quotes

Maybe it was then. Maybe that was the moment when things started to go wrong, the moment when I imagined us no longer a couple, but a family; and after that, once I had that picture in my head, just the two of us could never be enough. Was it then that Tom started to look at me differently, his disappointment mirroring my own? After all he gave up for me, for the two of us to be together, I let him think that he wasn't enough.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson
Related Symbols: Trains
Page Number: 51
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Four Quotes

The thing about being barren is that you're not allowed to get away from it. […] My friends were having children, friends of friends were having children, pregnancy and birth and first birthday parties were everywhere. I was asked about it all the time. […] When was it going to be my turn? […] I was still young, there was still plenty of time, but failure cloaked me like a mantle, it overwhelmed me, dragged me under, and I gave up hope. […] I was wrong to suggest that we should share the blame; it was all down to me.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson
Page Number: 78
Explanation and Analysis:

On the train on the way home, as I dissect all the ways that today went wrong, I'm surprised by the fact that I don't feel as awful as I might. Thinking about it, I know why that is: I didn't have a drink last night, and I have no desire to have one now. I am interested, for the first time in ages, in something other than my own misery. I have purpose. Or at least, I have a distraction.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”
Related Symbols: Trains
Page Number: 85
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Five Quotes

I'm thinking about her now. I have to convince Scott that I knew her—a little, not a lot. That way, he'll believe me when I tell him that I saw her with another man. If I admit to lying right away, he'll never trust me. So I try to imagine what it would have been like to drop by the gallery, chat with her over a coffee. Does she drink coffee? We would talk about art, perhaps, or yoga, or our husbands. I don't know anything about art, I've never done yoga. I don't have a husband. And she betrayed hers.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Anna Watson, Tom Watson, Scott Hipwell / “Jason”
Page Number: 107
Explanation and Analysis:
Anna: Two Quotes

We need to get away from here. We need to get away from her.

Related Characters: Anna Watson (speaker), Rachel Watson, Tom Watson, Scott Hipwell / “Jason”, Evie
Page Number: 140
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Eight Quotes

"Honestly, Rachel, I don't understand how you could have kept this up for so long."

I shrug. "ln the morning, I take the 8:04, and in the evening, I come back on the 5:55. That's my train. It's the one I take. That's the way it is."

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Cathy (speaker)
Related Symbols: Trains
Page Number: 157
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Ten Quotes

It's different, the nightmare I wake from this morning. In it, I've done something wrong, but I don't know what it is, all I know is that it cannot be put right. All I know is that Tom hates me now, he won't talk to me any longer, and he has told everyone I know about the terrible thing I've done, and everyone has turned against me: old colleagues, my friends, even my mother. They look at me with disgust, contempt, and no one will listen to me, no one will let me tell them how sorry I am. I feel awful, desperately guilty, I just can't think what it is that I've done.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson, Rachel’s Mother
Page Number: 179
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Eleven Quotes

Megan isn't what I thought she was anyway. She wasn't that beautiful, carefree girl out on the terrace. She wasn't a loving wife. She wasn't even a good person. She was a liar, a cheat.

She was a killer.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Scott Hipwell / “Jason”
Page Number: 209
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Thirteen Quotes

“Every time I passed that hole in the wall I thought about it. Tom said he was going to patch it up, but he didn't, and I didn't want to pester him about it. One day I was standing there […] and I […] remembered. I was on the floor, my back to the wall, sobbing and sobbing, Tom standing over me, begging me to calm down, the golf club on the carpet next to my feet, and I felt it, I felt it. I was terrified. The memory doesn't fit with the reality, because I don't remember anger, raging fury. I remember fear."

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Tom Watson, Dr. Kamal Abdic
Page Number: 230
Explanation and Analysis:
Anna: Six Quotes

I'm doing the things she did: drinking alone and snooping on him. The things she did and he hated. But recently—as recently as this morning—things have shifted. If he's going to lie, then I'm going to check up on him. That's a fair deal, isn't it?

Related Characters: Anna Watson (speaker), Rachel Watson, Tom Watson
Page Number: 242
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Fifteen Quotes

Everything is a lie. I didn't imagine him hitting me. I didn't imagine him walking away from me quickly, his fists clenched. I saw him turn, shout. I saw him walking down the road with a woman, I saw him getting into the car with her. I didn't imagine it. And I realize then that it's all very simple, so very simple.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Tom Watson
Page Number: 271-272
Explanation and Analysis:
Anna: Nine Quotes

"I don't believe you," I say. "Why would he lie about that?"

"Because he lies about everything."

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Anna Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Tom Watson
Page Number: 279
Explanation and Analysis:
Rachel: Nineteen Quotes

Tom's lips are moving, he's saying something to me, but I can't hear him. I watch him come, I watch him, and I don't move until he's almost upon me, and then I swing. I jam the vicious twist of the corkscrew into his neck.

His eyes widen as he falls without a sound. He raises his hands to his throat, his eyes on mine. He looks as though he's crying. I watch until I can't look any longer, then I turn my back on him. As the train goes past I can see faces in brightly lit windows, heads bent over books and phones, travellers warm and safe on their way home.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”, Anna Watson, Tom Watson
Related Symbols: Trains
Page Number: 317
Explanation and Analysis: