Shinji is so devoted to Hatsue that he feels, from time to time, that he’d truly do anything for her—sometimes he believes he would leave his family or his life behind if need be. When Shinji actually stops to consider the ramifications of such decisions, however, he finds that at a certain point devotion becomes a selfish thing. Shinji’s priority is his journey toward selflessness and the preservation of his family’s happiness—though of course his intense feelings for Hatsue, pure and committed as they are, are important to him as well.