By noticing her tendency to rely so much on her clock and defining her fear of chaos, Davidson takes an important step toward recognizing the downsides of a highly ordered perspective. At this point, she sees that other perspectives are possible, but she cannot yet bring herself to adopt them. Her growing realization that she needs to rely on herself more also ties into her sense of her female identity, which has previously seemed like a weakness but has now begun to feel like a source of strength.