In Justin Torres’s We The Animals, violence and aggression are often tied to surprisingly tender emotions. The narrator and his brothers grow up in an abusive household, in which their father’s violence is a constant threat. Furthermore, the boys’ tendency to roughhouse mirrors the physical abuse they’ve faced, as their own aggression becomes an attempt to normalize violence and, in turn, their own trauma. And yet, the abuse they encounter is also more complicated than it might first appear, since it often seems to signal a certain emotional investment, as if violence and aggression are ways of expressing love. For instance, after beating Manny because he and his brothers decided to sleep in the woods without telling their parents, Paps apologizes by saying that he only used violence because he’d been afraid that something bad might happen to them. Of course, this is the kind of flawed reasoning that abusers often use to justify otherwise unjustifiable behavior, and it ultimately sends a clear and disturbing message to the narrator and his brothers—namely, that aggression is a way of expressing how much a person cares about others. In fact, it is this very reasoning that later makes the narrator want his brothers to beat him up. Sensing that his academic success and emerging sexual identity sets him at odds with Manny and Joel, the narrator tries to provoke them into hurting him, clearly believing that violence would reaffirm their love for him. Accordingly, Torres examines the ways in which violence sometimes serves as an unfortunate and destructive stand-in for healthy emotional expression.
The narrator and his brothers are surrounded by violence at home, which is why they act out violence amongst themselves by playing wildly and aggressively. Most importantly, the brothers incorporate violence into their lives as if it’s a sport, turning it into a game rather than something to be feared. When, for example, they play a three-person version of foursquare, they pretend to be their angry father each time they whack the ball, saying things like, “this is for raising your voice,” or, “this is for embarrassing me in public.” There’s no question that this is a tragic reflection of just how inundated their lives are by violence, but their embrace of aggression is—above all—a coping mechanism. By emulating the darkest parts of their lives in relatively risk-free environments, they’re able to work through trauma that would otherwise go unacknowledged. In other words, they accept violence as a part of life because they have no way of avoiding it. In turn, Torres illustrates not only the concerning cycle of familial aggression, but also the complex ways in which young people learn to cope with abuse.
Not only do the narrator and his brothers view violence as an inherent part of life, but they also come to associate it with emotional tenderness. This is partly because their parents’ relationship fluctuates between affection and animosity, as Paps physically abuses Ma but (like many abusers) frequently dotes on her and showers her with love. As a result, Paps and Ma exist in a seemingly never-ending cycle of violence and affection, one that unfortunately teaches the boys to view love as inextricably intertwined with aggression. This association is further strengthened when Paps beats Manny for failing to tell him that he and his brothers were going to sleep in the woods. In the aftermath of this beating, Paps insists that the only reason he hurt Manny was because he’d been frightened that something bad might happen to his beloved children. By saying this, he frames violence as a product of love, a sign that somebody truly cares about another person. This is a message that the boys internalize, as evidenced by their decision to unexpectedly start beating both of their parents in the middle of a good-natured tickle fight one night. Suddenly smacking their parents and shouting at them, the three boys express both anger and love toward their parents, having learned that the two sentiments are directly related. This, it seems, is the only way they know how to show their parents how they feel about them.
Aggression in We The Animals is a form of emotional currency, but it’s also a source of self-destruction. Unable to openly share his feelings of alienation with his brothers, the narrator seeks out the only embodiment of acceptance and affection he knows: violence and spite. This happens during his teenage years, when he fearfully realizes that his intellectual nature and emerging homosexuality set him apart from Manny and Joel. Knowing that they too can sense his differences, he provokes them one night when they’re all drunk, insulting them both by saying that they embarrass him. When Manny grabs a stick and threatens to hit him in the face with it, he notes that he actively wants his brother to hurt him. This is because such violence would bind them to one another, since they all see aggression as a manifestation of care and affection. Instead of hitting him, though, Manny drops the stick and tells him there’s something wrong with him, saying, “Let’s talk about that.” However, the boys don’t talk about their differences, since—as the narrator implies—they’re incapable of having honest conversations about such things. Instead, the narrator runs away, and when he returns, he learns that his family has read his diary and discovered that he’s gay—a development that leads to the end of his relationship with them. That the narrator’s argument with his brothers precedes this falling-out ultimately links the dissolution of their relationship with his inability to genuinely connect with them. With this in mind, Torres shows readers the tragic consequences of expressing emotion only through violence and aggression, demonstrating how disastrous it can be when loved ones don’t know how to connect with each other in healthy, nonviolent ways.
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Violence, Aggression, and Love Quotes in We the Animals
And when our Paps came home, we got spankings. Our little round butt cheeks were tore up: red, raw, leather-whipped. We knew there was something on the other side of pain, on the other side of the sting. Prickly heat radiated upward from our thighs and backsides, fire consumed our brains, but we knew that there was something more, someplace our Paps was taking us with all this. We knew, because he was meticulous, because he was precise, because he took his time. He was awakening us; he was leading us somewhere beyond burning and ripping, and you couldn’t get there in a hurry.
We had learned not to correct her or try to pull her out of the confusion; it only made things worse. Once, before we’d known better, Joel refused to go to the neighbors and ask for a stick of butter. It was nearly midnight and she was baking a cake for Manny.
“Ma, you’re crazy,” Joel said. “Everyone’s sleeping, and it’s not even his birthday.”
She studied the clock for a good while, shook her head quickly back and forth, and then focused on Joel; she bored deep in his eyes as if she was looking past his eyeballs, into the lower part of his brain. Her mascara was all smudged and her hair was stiff and thick, curling black around her face and matted down in the back. She looked like a raccoon caught digging in the trash: surprised, dangerous.
“I hate my life,” she said.
“Loving big boys is different from loving little boys—you’ve got to meet tough with tough. It makes me tired sometimes, that’s all, and you, I don’t want you to leave me. I’m not ready.”
Then Ma leaned in and whispered more in my ear, told me more, about why she needed me six. She whispered it all to me, her need so big, no softness anywhere, only Paps and boys turning into Paps.
I grabbed hold of both of her cheeks and pulled her toward me for a kiss.
The pain traveled sharp and fast to her eyes, pain opened up her pupils into big black disks. She ripped her face from mine and shoved me away from her, to the floor. She cussed me and Jesus, and the tears dropped, and I was seven.
I yelled for them to stop, that’s all I did, yelled that one word over and over, stop, stop, stop. I thought of Ma, whispering that same stop, stop, stop to our father. Manny sucked down the snot from his nose into his throat and spat a lugie in Joel’s face, and the mucus slid off, like egg yolk.
“Animals,” said Old Man, “animals.”
[…] when I looked at her face she looked like she was in pain, but she didn’t look frightened, like it was a kind of pain she wanted.
[…] The faucet poked into the base of her spine, and it must have hurt her, all of it must have hurt her, because Paps was much bigger and heftier, and he was rough with her, just like he was rough with us. We saw that it must hurt her, too, to love him.
Then we were all three kicking and slapping at once, and they didn’t say a word, they didn’t even move; the only noise was the noise of skin and impact and breath, and then our protests, why don’t you come find us, why don’t you do what you’re supposed to do, come and find us, why don’t ya, because you’re bad, bad, bad, bad, bad, why don’t you do right, why can’t you do right, we hate you, come and find us, we hate you, everyone hates you, you better come and find us, next time, next time you better come.
We hit and we kept on hitting; we were allowed to be what we were, frightened and vengeful—little animals, clawing at what we needed.
“He crying?” Joel whispered.
“What, with his fist?”
It didn’t seem much like crying, seemed like something else, meaner than crying; steadier, too, but not one of us had ever actually seen him cry, so we couldn’t know for sure—and Paps, he didn’t say a word about it, just the thump, thump, thump, for miles. When we thought he would stop, he didn’t; when we thought he would speak or scream or cuss, he was silent. His breathing calmed some, but the water and snot kept coming, and the wheeze, and the gasp.
Then Joel was behind me, locking my arms in a full nelson. I tried to shrug him off, but it was no use. They were both drunk; Manny held that damn branch right in front of my face. I imagined the welt of it slamming across the side of my head. And I wanted it.
“Either you’re fucked up, or you’re getting fucked up. Which one will it be?”
Look at us three, look at how they held me there—they didn’t want to let me go.
“Go ahead, Manny, hit me with that stick. See if it makes you feel better.” My voice started strong but ended soft, a whisper, a plea. “Just fucking beat me with it.”
Paps lunged, and my brothers, for the first time in their lives, restrained him. But that restraint shifted before my eyes into an embrace; somehow, at the same time that they were keeping him back, they were supporting him, holding Paps upright, preventing him from sliding to the floor himself, and in that moment I realized that not just Ma, but each and every one of them had read the fantasies and delusions, the truth I had written in my little private book.