"As I Grew Older" appears in Langston Hughes's first collection of poems, The Weary Blues (1926), one of the landmark books of the Harlem Renaissance. Its intense, symbolic language expresses frustration with racial barriers, imagined as a "thick wall" that blocks the Black speaker from their "dream." Just when the speaker seems on the verge of giving up, they voice determination to "Break through the wall!" and achieve the life they want. The poem's core themes—including Blackness, racism, thwarted dreams, and surviving hope—would come to define Hughes's best-known poetry.
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1It was a long time ago.
2I have almost forgotten my dream.
3But it was there then,
4In front of me,
5Bright like a sun,—
6My dream.
7And then the wall rose,
8Rose slowly,
9Slowly,
10Between me and my dream.
11Rose slowly, slowly,
12Dimming,
13Hiding,
14The light of my dream.
15Rose until it touched the sky,—
16The wall.
17Shadow.
18I am black.
19I lie down in the shadow.
20No longer the light of my dream before me,
21Above me.
22Only the thick wall.
23Only the shadow.
24My hands!
25My dark hands!
26Break through the wall!
27Find my dream!
28Help me to shatter this darkness,
29To smash this night,
30To break this shadow
31Into a thousand lights of sun,
32Into a thousand whirling dreams
33Of sun!
1It was a long time ago.
2I have almost forgotten my dream.
3But it was there then,
4In front of me,
5Bright like a sun,—
6My dream.
7And then the wall rose,
8Rose slowly,
9Slowly,
10Between me and my dream.
11Rose slowly, slowly,
12Dimming,
13Hiding,
14The light of my dream.
15Rose until it touched the sky,—
16The wall.
17Shadow.
18I am black.
19I lie down in the shadow.
20No longer the light of my dream before me,
21Above me.
22Only the thick wall.
23Only the shadow.
24My hands!
25My dark hands!
26Break through the wall!
27Find my dream!
28Help me to shatter this darkness,
29To smash this night,
30To break this shadow
31Into a thousand lights of sun,
32Into a thousand whirling dreams
33Of sun!
It was a long time ago.
I have almost forgotten my dream.
But it was there then,
In front of me,
Bright like a sun,—
My dream.
And then the wall rose,
Rose slowly,
Slowly,
Between me and my dream.
Rose slowly, slowly,
Dimming,
Hiding,
The light of my dream.
Rose until it touched the sky,—
The wall.
Shadow.
I am black.
I lie down in the shadow.
No longer the light of my dream before me,
Above me.
Only the thick wall.
Only the shadow.
My hands!
My dark hands!
Break through the wall!
Find my dream!
Help me to shatter this darkness,
To smash this night,
To break this shadow
Into a thousand lights of sun,
Into a thousand whirling dreams
Of sun!
Select any word below to get its definition in the context of the poem. The words are listed in the order in which they appear in the poem.
The Poem Aloud — Listen to a reading of "As I Grew Older," complete with musical accompaniment.
The Poet's Life and Work — Read a short biography of Hughes, plus other Hughes poems, at Poets.org.
An Introduction to the Harlem Renaissance — An introduction to the literary movement with which Hughes is closely associated.
A Hughes Video — Watch a short biographical film about Langston Hughes.
A Hughes Documentary — Watch a 2002 film about Hughes's life and times.
Hughes on "The Racial Mountain" — Read one of Hughes's most famous commentaries on race and literature, published the same year as The Weary Blues (1926).