An Unquiet Mind

by

Kay Redfield Jamison

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In 1971, as a manic (and in-denial) Kay Redfield Jamison began her doctoral studies in psychology at UCLA, she sought to find a way to weather the increasingly unpredictable cycles of mania and depression which had plagued her throughout her undergraduate studies. Rather than seek the help of a psychiatrist, confide in a friend, family member, or colleague, or admit even to herself that she was in the throes of a terrifying illness, Kay used the money from her fellowship to buy herself a horse. The horse was stubborn, neurotic, and prone to lameness, and though Kay spent lots of money on the horse (as well as lots of time caring for it), she was ultimately forced to sell it, unable to keep up with its costs. The horse, then, is a symbol for Kay’s slow, painful journey toward escaping her denial about her manic-depressive illness—and her need for treatment. Though Kay’s selling of the horse did not coincide directly with her reaching out and seeking help, her failure to be able to care for the horse symbolizes her failure to be able to care for herself, and it compounds the story’s increasing sense of pressure as the Kay of the early 1970s descended further into madness.

Kay’s Horse Quotes in An Unquiet Mind

The An Unquiet Mind quotes below all refer to the symbol of Kay’s Horse. For each quote, you can also see the other characters and themes related to it (each theme is indicated by its own dot and icon, like this one:
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Chapter 2 Quotes

I decided early in graduate school that I needed to do something about my moods. It quickly came down to a choice between seeing a psychiatrist or buying a horse. Since almost everyone I knew was seeing a psychiatrist, and since I had an absolute belief that I should be able to handle my own problems, I naturally bought a horse. Not just any horse, but an unrelentingly stubborn and blindingly neurotic one, a sort of equine Woody Allen, but without the entertainment value.

Related Characters: Kay Redfield Jamison (speaker)
Related Symbols: Kay’s Horse
Page Number: 55
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Chapter 5 Quotes

The complexities of what we are given in life are vast and beyond comprehension. It was as if my father had given me, by way of temperament, an impossibly wild, dark, and unbroken horse. It was a horse without a name, and a horse with no experience of a bit between its teeth.

Related Characters: Kay Redfield Jamison (speaker), Kay’s Father
Related Symbols: Kay’s Horse
Page Number: 119
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Kay’s Horse Symbol Timeline in An Unquiet Mind

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Chapter 2: An Education for Life
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...state of mind—not by seeing a psychiatrist or seeking out medication, but by buying a horse. The horse was stubborn, neurotic, and prone to lameness, and Jamison sank a lot of... (full context)
Chapter 5: The Charnel House
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...to life outside the hospital. Her mother, she writes, helped her to temper the “unbroken horse” of manic-depressive illness—an illness Kay inherited, she now knows, from her father. (full context)