The only time
Gawande discussed mortality was in a weekly seminar called “Patient-Doctor,” in which they read Tolstoy’s
The Death of Ivan Ilyich. In the story, Ilyich is 45 years old, and one day, he falls off a stepladder and develops a pain in his side. The pain grows worse, and he becomes unable to work. Doctors aren’t able to figure out exactly what’s wrong, and their remedies do nothing. Tolstoy writes that what bothers Ivan Ilyich the most is that everyone believes he is ill, not that he is dying. But he wants to be comforted as someone at the end of his life.