When
Alison drove home to Pennsylvania the night of
Bruce’s death, she and her little brother
John “greeted each other with ghastly, uncontrollable grins.” Alison says it could be argued that death is inherently absurd in the sense that grinning isn’t an inappropriate response. She adds that perhaps Camus’s definition of absurd—“that the universe is irrational and human life meaningless” applies to her father’s death as well. In college, Alison had to read
The Myth of Sisyphus, and Bruce offered to lend Alison his copy but she refused. She says she wishes she could say she’d accepted the book, still had it, and he’d underlined a revelatory passage.