Pan Kai Jing Quotes in The Bonesetter’s Daughter
Why can’t I see it now? I’ve pushed a hundred family names through my mouth, and none comes back with the belch of memory. Was the name uncommon? Did I lose it because I kept it a secret too long? Maybe I lost it the same way I lost all my favorite things—the jacket GaoLing gave me when I left for the orphan school, the dress my second husband said made me look like a movie star, the first baby dress that Luyi outgrew. Each time I loved something with a special ache, I put it in my trunk of best things. I hid those things for so long I almost forgot I had them.
That was how dishonesty and betrayal started, not in big lies but in small secrets.
“There are no such things as curses,” Kai Jing later told me. “Those are superstitions, and a superstition is a needless fear. The only curses are worries you can’t get rid of.”
“But Precious Auntie told me this, and she was very smart.”
“She was self-taught, exposed to only the old ideas. She had no chance to learn about science, to go to a university like me.”
“Then why did my father die? Why did Precious Auntie die?”
“Your father died because of an accident. Precious Auntie killed herself. You said so yourself.”
“But why did the way of heaven lead to these things?”
“It’s not the way of heaven. There is no reason.”
Pan Kai Jing Quotes in The Bonesetter’s Daughter
Why can’t I see it now? I’ve pushed a hundred family names through my mouth, and none comes back with the belch of memory. Was the name uncommon? Did I lose it because I kept it a secret too long? Maybe I lost it the same way I lost all my favorite things—the jacket GaoLing gave me when I left for the orphan school, the dress my second husband said made me look like a movie star, the first baby dress that Luyi outgrew. Each time I loved something with a special ache, I put it in my trunk of best things. I hid those things for so long I almost forgot I had them.
That was how dishonesty and betrayal started, not in big lies but in small secrets.
“There are no such things as curses,” Kai Jing later told me. “Those are superstitions, and a superstition is a needless fear. The only curses are worries you can’t get rid of.”
“But Precious Auntie told me this, and she was very smart.”
“She was self-taught, exposed to only the old ideas. She had no chance to learn about science, to go to a university like me.”
“Then why did my father die? Why did Precious Auntie die?”
“Your father died because of an accident. Precious Auntie killed herself. You said so yourself.”
“But why did the way of heaven lead to these things?”
“It’s not the way of heaven. There is no reason.”