It is clear that Cedric’s relationship with Zayd is unbalanced, with Cedric needing Zayd much more than Zayd needs Cedric. Without his friend, Cedric must start over and try to find a place to fit in—but in order to fit in, Cedric must have some idea of who he is, which is proving difficult. On one hand, he has opened his mind a bit regarding homosexuality, which was a strict cultural taboo back at home. For black men in the inner city at this time, masculinity was defined in relation to heterosexual conquests, with men like Cedric Gilliam—with his many girlfriends—exemplifying masculinity.