Essun’s disparate identities come together more as the novel draws to a close, and she lets herself remember Alabaster and Innon and the brief experience of freedom that they shared on Meov. She found a different kind of love and freedom in Tirimo, but it also meant hiding her true identity as an orogene, which ultimately led to the disaster of Uche’s murder. Still, Essun has internalized her society’s anti-orogene sentiment and so blames herself for everything that happened to her children—simply because she dared to try to have a normal life.