Gilead

by

Marilynne Robinson

Gilead: Pages 185-191 Summary & Analysis

Summary
Analysis
Today is John’s birthday. There’s a stack of pancakes waiting for him at breakfast, and his son recites the Beatitudes perfectly, beaming at the accomplishment. His son wears his red shirt, and his wife wears her blue dress. John would give a great deal for a thousand mornings just like it. His wife also found the sermon he gave the first time he saw her, the Pentecost sermon. She kisses him and tells him not to go revising it. He is now 77.
John has an idyllic morning with his family—a picture of the kind of home he longed for during his lonely years but never dreamed he’d actually get to experience. His attention to detail suggests that he’s savoring it, knowing he might not reach his 78th birthday.
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John is discouraged to think that he might end up being “bothered to death” because of Jack Boughton. He feels it’s “disgraceful” that he’s unable to speak to Jack as a pastor should. The best people, he feels, love the people they pity. In general, women are better at this than men, but it also means that they get drawn into harmful situations. John always struggles to counsel people away from such situations—since that loving attitude is basically Christlike.
John’s struggles with Jack make him feel like he’s failing as a minister. He seems to think he should be able to distance himself from Jack emotionally, but given the past, that’s probably not realistic. John suggests that loving struggling people makes one vulnerable, and it’s not always healthy for people to do that. Yet doing so, he suggests, is also following Jesus’s example.
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Jack hasn’t replied to John’s note. So, he writes another. When he’s dropping it off in Boughton’s mailbox, Jack is outside. He reads the note and thanks John for it, and they agree to talk again soon. John feels relieved. Admittedly, part of the relief is the hope that his wife will no longer have reason to pity Jack so much.
John seems to fear that if Lila feels sorry for Jack, she’ll end up falling in love with him, and Jack will then take advantage of her. This fear is a big part of John’s motivation to try to help Jack with whatever is burdening him.
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John doesn’t sleep this night; he’s thinking about baptizing Jack. The plan had been to name Jack Theodore Dwight Weld. John liked that name, especially since his grandfather had loved Weld’s preaching. But during the baptism, when John asked Boughton what the child’s name was to be, Boughton wept and instead said, “John Ames.” Jack felt the situation was unlike Boughton, and “un-Presbyterian,” at that. People wept in the pews.
Theodore Dwight Weld was a famous 19th-century abolitionist. During the baptism ceremony, Boughton caught John totally off guard by declaring instead that the baby was to be named after him. John found this “un-Presbyterian” spontaneity and sentimentality off-putting.
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To be honest, John says, it took him a long time to forgive Boughton for this. If he’d had any time to reflect, he probably would have felt differently. But in the moment, his heart froze, and he thought, “This is not my child.” It’s foolish, but John admits that he has occasionally thought that the infant Jack felt how coldly John baptized him. He’s always felt guilty about it, and he’s never warmed up to Jack.
Boughton’s surprise set an uncertain tone for John and Jack’s relationship. It makes sense—after all, unexpectedly having a child named after you (and not your child, at that) is likely to bring up complex emotions. Even though it isn’t rational, John feels like this tainted Jack’s baptism somehow.
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After writing this, John realizes it isn’t actually true, and he’s relieved. But he does wish he could baptize Jack again, to really feel the sacredness of it. And John Ames Boughton really is his son in a sense. He recalls the passage in Calvin’s Institutes that says that God’s image in another person is reason enough to love them, even if they’re an enemy. He’s not saying that Jack is his enemy, but even if he isn’t, shouldn’t he be all the more ready to forgive whatever petty offenses Jack has committed against him?
Sorting through his feelings in writing helps John realize that they don’t necessarily reflect reality. But since baptizing people has always made John feel connected to the sacredness of human beings created by God, he wishes he could have another shot in this case. He wrestles with his feelings toward Jack, sincerely wanting to love him and not begrudge him.
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While John was praying about all this, he reflected that existence is the most essential and holiest thing. So, if God chooses to make nothing of human sin, then our transgressions truly are nothing—or at least, they are trivial compared to “the exquisite primary fact of existence.” At the same time, human beings can do great harm. John has always struggled to reconcile the gravity of sin with the grace of forgiveness. If Jack is truly his son, then that little girl who died was John’s child, too.
Essentially, John means that the mere existence of a human being is incredibly sacred, and that nothing can compare to that fact. No matter what a person has done, it can’t obscure the miracle of their existence. But he worries that this emphasis risks downplaying the horrible things people do, such as Jack’s neglect of his child.
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After reviewing these thoughts the next morning, John has realized that he’s avoiding the key question—how should he deal with his fear that Jack will somehow hurt his wife and son out of sheer meanness? Perhaps a big part of his fear is that if Jack did hurt them, his theology would fail him. Then John hears them all laughing on the porch below. It’s a relief. He thinks that he is an old and limited man, and even once he’s dead, Jack will remain “his inexplicable mortal self.”
It’s fine to theorize about existence and sin, but John is still faced with a pressing matter—after he dies, his wife and son could be at Jack’s mercy. The thought that Jack could harm his family threatens to override all of John’s forgiving intentions. At the same time, he recognizes that he doesn’t really understand Jack and is jumping to drastic conclusions based on his worst fears.
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