Newt wants to pretend that nothing bad has happened, as if he can remake the world according to his whims and desires— this, of course, is impossible. His intensely emotional reaction speaks to the close relationship he had with Deets, who was the most overtly kind and loving of his various father figures. But it also speaks to the kind of man he is growing up to be. He knows he must face the loss, but he still admits to himself and others how much it hurts him—in direct opposition to the stoic Call, who refuses to admit the grief that he so clearly feels.