Ciel wants to die after her child dies, which shows the vital importance of motherhood to Ciel’s emotional life and sense of self. Ciel’s love for Serena and her grief make her want to defy God, ending her life, which she believes “God [has] refused to take from her” despite her wishes. Interestingly, when Mattie yells, “Merciful father, no!”, the narrator characterizes her exclamation as not prayerful but blasphemous. In other words, Mattie is not praying to God to save Ciel but asserting her own intention to save Ciel even if God does not will it—revealing that Mattie’s maternal love for Ciel is stronger than her religious commitments.