Eva thinks of the trip to Africa in the same way she thinks of motherhood—she expects an exciting adventure, but it falls short of her expectations. The last time Eva resolved to be a better parent was during her extended stay at the hospital, so it seems true that Eva feels more positive about Kevin when she’s not around him. Eva’s mindset about parenthood still seems unhealthy even though she wants to be a better mother. She thinks only about what she can gain from motherhood rather than what she can offer her son.